Some people are so afraid of death that they dare not live.

Sometimes i wonder why do i return to this blog sometimes… Even i myself don’t like guys who blog.Yet i m doing the same. Maybe it seems as tho there are like some stuff that i would to point out from time to time.

Firstly it’s been a year Zero.. A hard and long year… I am finally free from the bloodly hook…(T.B) Going through that really made me see a hell lot of stuff. Also got to realise that the word Friends seems to be a word that carries a mask with it.I manage to scrap pass this year without much harm and that it made me realise that most friends are really "there" or so it seems. Can’t blame them as we are all humans in the end. it’s better off this way i guess… didn’t really wanted them to know anything either. guess it’s seems like a lonely life that i m leading… ah wad the heck.

it seems like the past 4-6 mths was kinda…. normal? most probly same stuff happens here and there. I guess its kinda sad looking at the pass… even more sad when u think abt it. Many incidents happen like why i m pissed in class nowadays… (reason shld be clear, need not say). Guess u might call this a weak spot … always thinking that i m able to do the impossible…. no mather how hard it is to complete stuff i still get it done… taking everything on me… achiving average results… maybe… i m just tired of this… yet i m unable to let it all out… (kind nature i think not, stupid and dumb maybe) sighs….. Zero since when did i become so… dependant? so… concerned? so.. weak?

Being a clubber (not the constant one but the "on" type) it seems that the parties are so lowly… organised.. guess i have to wait till i can enter St james constantly… Pubbing boreds me now… wad shld i try next… Let’s see

Lastly… will be M.I.A soon i guess no point showing up for gatherings and such seems meaningless to me now as i might be seen as the "confident one, or zhuai kia" insisting that one side is sufficient. Haiz wadever ba… since relations is looking quite bad from my side.. might as well just carry on living my way…. doing my style….. saying stuff to the point…

To all u buggers that actually read this GET THIS CLEAR. IF YOU GOT SOMETHING THAT YOU WANT TO SAY, SAY IT IN MY FACE. DON’T BOTHER GETTING A GROUP AND GANGING ME. IF MY WORDS HURTS YOU THEN TALK TO ME DON’T GO GOSSIPING BEHIND ME . FINALLY FOR THOSE WHO KEEPS PUTTING ME THAT IMAGE.. LET ME TELL YOU ONE THING. IF YOUR SO AFRAID OF LIVING THE WAY YOU ARE THEN DONT LIVE AT ALL.

TIME to do my IPD bloodly group did nth to the finishing of the report…

Zero.. Take me into the skys again…..

Seems like a super long time Zero..

Not Working anymore
Finished my Treatnment
Got to settle my stupid army deferment shit.
Somehow passed my CTs..

Looks like not that much happened. Basically it seems like life has become a chess board. (maybe its because i played chess on mon)

Well.. moves must be made and it seems the time is ripe for decisive measures to be put in place. Big Project comming up. We should be able to pull it off some how. Lastly… it’s time for a change. Remodeling is just not enough. Zero.. await the rebirth of a new you. I am not me.

J.

Throat ’s begining to force me to cough so .. ya.. maybe it’s worsening.. who knows …

people are getting more and more forgetful about their actions which have the minimum effect for them… but greatly affect others….  sighs

recently been seeing people who flaunt power like it was nothing and showing off… yet one has to think that power is wanted by all but not being used in any right way.. yet people desire power to dorminate and even "help" but.. yet… its such a sad case..

Power to kill ,  power to play , power to protect , power to break free from rules.. and the list goes on and on… but yet… little is done to eliminate the power for desire….

haiz zero.. looks like my body will be more run-out before your done.. … looks like its the begining … <devil custom> …

Today’s the day where i m gona lose it. Freaking pissed off with that super t.v star.. knn t.v star big arh.. kao.. talk so loudly in the mrt. Ever heard of social grace? Bitch…

Losing stuff.. kao.. leave at home also go missing . i might as well lose myself.. asses… gr…

Maybe it’s because i m too nice…
or either that it’s just me.

Fine.. i’ll stop being the freaking nice person… i see no more point in being this way.

Freaks…!!!!

BAH!

The past few days were shity… haha had only like 12 hours of sleep hahah maybe its good i think…

Fianlyl tyhe freaking presentation was done and over with . Way to go group 3. haha Ther was only 1 meeting , 1 chance to plan and 1 time to present. Great opening by tim hahah but could not follow up with the other team members.. sighs.. but any ways haha  at least our group made a super good impresstion..

Quite dislike the lecture , .. CATS lecture’s are always a pain….  2 lectures in 1 sem gr… 2 diff styles gr.. .hate IS  moudules… .gr,…

At least i got a shot at her and defended the team’s main idea .. gr.. hate it…

Zero 3 mths more… gr… 500 $ in  3 mths i have to do  it. … 

3 mths to ride your first type… Zero give me the instinct to choose a good starting. Hopefully i shall get it.. XD

Hiaz… lost my phone on the 28th of December… lost like super loads of contacts… most importnatly lost some very important numbers… Zero… i think that i relied too much on my phone too much i wasn’t this way…. sighs…  made my sis pay for me new phone… i felt bad all throughout the end of last year…. but.. that was then ….

Now the year kicked off with a such a good start…
Praised GOD!! hahahah

Common test results are out haha never fail any..  haha scored a bit above just passing.. hopefully this year GPA ’s gona go up.. gr… MATHS better give me an A . hahaha sounds imposible shld anyone form 4/3 read this XD

Loads of stuff happen… WEnt out with my sun nuis on the 4th haha some1 birthday make me spend 25$worh.. . must make sure to get back XD hhahaha no la.. but still ahd fun.. <wonders shld i up load a pic> maybe i shld haha for the memmory… XD

Now.. currently rushing for projects never sleep well for the pas few days already 2hrs 45 mins got sleep yesterday .. .haha so shiok..

Zero … 1 day and its over..  haha

Zero.. lend me your strength for this final run of this year 1 .

eMAn! was it raining like crazy… reach CMPB and it was quite a down pour…. Gr…. stupid officers.. can’t they just make sure that my differment was done correctly.!!! And wad do they mean by they can’t cover consualtations when the freaking medication is free… STupid logic of thiers and also stupid  regulations.. gr…

Sch was like pouring as well.. the bus 61 i took was cold like … it made me wait and of cuz i was late. gr…

but i am not really  pissed abt that. The crapy.. make up lab ended me with just finishing 1 stupid expriment .. haiz… 5 more to go.. crap! at least i was not alone.. haha Got me sly king jerms with me hahaha and also another lady by the name of lili.. haha .

Too much expriments.. too little time.. haiz.. guess next sem got to pia hahah..

Had some sandwiches and catching up with jerms.. guess the orchird road party was like madness!! uahahahahah  uber ownage!

Finally my day out was ended with a super bizzar mrt ride.

i had the pleasure of 2 super chio girls sitting beside me uahahah!

Carp shld have gotten thier numbers.. gr.. y did i had to end the conversation so early…!! ARGH>>!>! anyways.. dozed off after that.

Woke up at around bugis…  wiht another chio girl standing beside me. Weird!!! Tried to offer me sit but was beaten by the guy beside me haha in the end sat on the same 2 seaters.. hahaha.

Well guess i was kinda too tired or shld i say lazy to take out my ear piece and handphone.. XD <weakling>

Anyways its up to chance shld i see  such fine girls again.

NEXT UP COUNT DOWN PARTY WHOOOOOOOO!

Woke up this morning to a sudden shock.. there were people at my hse… hahah XD … finally after like 5 yars of long waiiting.. my net arrived >.<

Was stunned by the 2 people that came to install the com and do the installation.. XD Was more stunned that my sis actually made pancakes… haha ther was a half done pancake weird…. anyways.. now i m able to do my sch work and play games with ease…. no more going to other people’s hse to use net and such.. .sighs…

Surely this a morning that is fulled of surpirses… hope later in the day there wont be anymore.. too sick and tired…

Off to sch zero.. and finally your up XD LAterz.

Wa… Finally the seasons holidays are almsot over… hahah not really a big fan of the holidays.. Slept for hours man…. think i forgot loads of outings .. XD Sry to all those that i missed the outings for. Cpuld not remember … HAHA

Well besides going for like a ton of church events… haha chirstmas was spend quitely at the comfrom of my home uahahah …Went to  some underground lan shop at nite .. met 3 people that  day.. woah… weird day… XD

First was Elim.. ahaha she did not see me if i didn’t call out XD but haiz.. then it was Shou Hui and Ming Hui XD same bus <222> hahahah …. some more late at nite wor…. POWER>>>!

Went 85 market to grab a bite.. MAn was my tooth hurting.. but yea.. the pain was So good…. Shiok…!

Alas went home at ard 2 plus but unknowingly got a msg  Tim was back… hahaha.. Then went to the ledgendly Mee Pok Stall at sengpang uahahahah . Had breaking breakfast there. MAN the stall was good as ever.. =) Same old taste  Shiok!

Well now doing nth… 2 days more… Zero  2 days more… uahahahha . Finally , last on my list is to have a better handphone.. plus… Shld i call her out hmm…… we shall see..

That’s abt it Zero..
LEts burst into the new year with a new custom… uahahah LAterz

lol its weird back to bloging.. but ya… got stuff to say.

Saw some super cool toy on sale the other day at taka.. owning!! It flies !!! hope to get it for christmas uahahahaha.

also there ’s like a ton of other stuff that happen. Since this blog went down i think my health went down together with it.haha… On the verge of recoving from a seirous lung infection… been 1 mth since i m on medication haha 5 more mths to go… the worst thing is that  i can’t drink…!! sighs.. * but still  its not like a drink a lot or such its just that i m super missing out on the wines……! gr… Apart from that… been quite a tiring semester … loads of stuff and crapy lectures… haiz.. IF READING FROM THE SLIDES IS CALLED TEACHING , WAD IS …  haiz…… free pay loaders…

Last thing to add… Super pissed with people that know’s everything and can give attitudes but can’t give in to others when they’re pissed.

That’s abt it …  more to come.. we shall see…

LAterz Zero…